i need urgent help please?

Question

hi im 17 years old and i am currently studying law at college im doing well and hope to go to university in a few Years time i am very non violent person i love my education i did well in school but in high school i got bullied for 5 years i did not get help and took it all in i have an iq of a 109 bright normal range but i have a problem i love torturing insects and watching them die i was taking my fustratiion of bullying on them i have been doing this for 5 years i get extremely upset when i see someone getting bullied and have sleeping problems i have discovered i have similar traits to a serial killer do i need help

Answer 1

Breath, relax, think calm thoughts.

Do sports you like to take up your time, preferably sports that help your need to let off steam.

If you need help, get it. If you feel you need help, it doesn't matter what others say.

Breath, relax, think calm thoughts.

Write your feelings down. Even if you have the traits, this doesn't mean you are or will be a serial killer.

Get help if you want it, don't let anyone talk you out of it. If trying to get help from a particular person makes you feel worse, stop and go somewhere else.

It's hard to break habits, but try catching yourself when you see a bug. Get away, and breath. Relax. Think calm thoughts.

If you see someone getting bullied, help them. Find someone to stop it. Stay with them. Find common ground.

Hope you feel better. :)

Good luck, my best wishes with you.

Answer 2

Well, for one thing, you say "I have traits of a serial killer." You act like since you have traits of a serial killer, then you will become a killer. This is not true. You aren't a serial killer no matter what traits you have until you actually kill someone. Then, you'll be in prison for ever so...that's just plain stupid. It sounds like you're taking your inside anger out on insects because they're the only thing that you can overpower. If someone bullies you or you see someone getting bullied, speak up. That is the root of your 'traits'-you don't speak up about things and your mind has to take this anger out on something so it resorts to helpless insects. They may be small, but they are to what we can all attribute our evolution. Don't kill them. If need be, go to a psychologist. All in all, you just need to get your anger out.

Answer 3

First, praise yourself for your insight and for being honest with yourself that this behavior is not helpful to you. Good for you for seeing it and seeking to change. That is a HUGE first step!



There are better, more productive outlets for frustration and anger, you just need to find one. I think a really good one is a self-defense class or karate or kickboxing. The idea is to be able to vent frustration through strenuous physical exercise, and at the same time learn to defend yourself and get some confidence in your physical capabilities. This will help you get rid of feelings of powerlessness and vulnerability, and will raise your self-esteem. Confident people are not targets, weak people are. Become physically stronger and emotionally more confident, and your reaction to the bullies will change completely. You will also feel empowered to step in and help someone else if they are getting bullied, because you'll be confident that you can handle yourself.



I really encourage you to try the route of learning to defend yourself, because it will achieve more of what you need, BUT, if you feel uncomfortable with the "violent" aspect of this, then try ANY strenuous physical activity, jogging, anything. The idea is to have a way to vent frustrations in sweat and exertion, and to achieve a physical goal that you set for yourself to increase your physical confidence.



That should help some and maybe after some of that, you'll feel better about learning self-defense. The self-defense is important, though, because the only way to stop the bullying is to stand up to it.

Answer 4

Oh sweetie, sounds like you need to talk to someone. Maybe anyone would do, just so you can talk things through, work things out and get the reassurance that you need that you are a normal decent person - just under a lot of stress.

Are you in the uk or the states? Could you get your doc to refer you to someone? School counselling service?

Answer 5

I think perhaps the best thing for you to do is go talk to your school's counselor. You seem to think something is wrong with your emotions and yearnings, so that's a sign you want some kind of assistance.



If you think that's not how you want to live, then go talk to the counselor. They often have excellent advice and you'll feel a lot better. Lots of people go, if only just for a listening ear :)

Answer 6

If i was in your place i would just take a break from it all and get thearapy, maybe a vacation ot holiday away from home. taking in too much at a time can cause people to get overwelmed. i think you're fine. =]

Answer 7

obviously being bullied has left a terrible scar on you. yes yu need help. this can get very serious and uncontrollabe. take control of it while yu can before it get worse and yu regret gettin attention for it.