KO
2009-10-15 09:29:32 UTC
Hi!
My biopsy results were inconclusive, so just to be safe, we're going to do minor surgery to remove the abnormal cells. After that if I follow up regularly I should be ok. It could affect my ability to have more children, but I feel blessed to have my daughter and I really will be ok if I can't have more babies.
I hope your move goes well in early November. I've been wanting to ask you to come over and see my new place, but you seem so stressed out lately, and I didn't want to seem selfish. I am starting school again in January to become a school teacher, so I'm getting to the point of high stress too I think.
The marathon Sunday was incredible to watch and volunteer at. I was there at 4 handing out jackets to other volunteers. I had to work with this drill sergeant girl for about a half hour and I was about to get ghetto on her. Thank goodness she left early. After I fulfilled my duties, I went to watch the runners finish. It was an emotional time for me just remembering that I trained my body to do that and got my medal last year. I decided I'm going to start training in April for it and run it again- faster his time. I want a mulligan.
That guy Dave that I cancelled a date with showed up at my church on Saturday night- called me from the parking lot. He wants to start going to Church. I still won't go out with him because my intention is never to try to change anyone, and I don't want him becoming a Christian just because of me. He should be doing that for himself. We'll see what happens in time. He did sit with me and asked me all kinds of questions- to the point I was ready to tell him to shut up so I could hear! lol
I know emails are one-sided, but I can't text this kind of stuff, and the times we talk on the phone one of us is usually busy. Keep in touch if you'd like. If not, I understand. We've broken up so many times I've decided there is no such thing for us. One day maybe we'll both never call, text or email each other again and that will be the end of us, but it won't be because I'm trying to get closure by saying goodbye to you. I just feel you can't seem to hold a romantic interest in me for more than about 5 minutes at a time...you don't break up with me, but you do sort of stop communicating regularly sometimes. I sometimes think I'm too much of a do-gooder type, and I've always wondered if you thought I was too boring and predictable. No matter what, I'll always care about you. You're a great dad- I can tell you care about your girls and want what's best for them. I'll keep praying that you get a house with a yard for them and that your bar is a success and your dreams are fulfilled. When you said you wanted your own restaurant, I always pictured you as the proud owner of your own Diner. I guess because I didn't know you when you worked at the place where you met your ex wife, I never saw you as a guy who'd run a bar. Maybe because on our first date you told me you are not a bar person? lol
I'm going to get ready for work now... Starting in January I get to work from home 2 days a week- Monday and Friday, so I can get studying done for my teaching certificate. I'm excited not to have to commute 3 hours a day round trip for at least a couple of days...
Enjoy your day. You're always in my prayers. Always